jul 1 2026  1055 bedrotting after weeks of more addiction

the "but who knows" at the end of storytellings is so important to keeping the wonder in myths fables and tall tales..

jul 16 2026 1200 crippling rotting

ive let a lot of thoughts slip away for trivial reasons

do i exercise as my simplest way of dopamine ?

i feel mentally castrated by being at home being watched and being on my phone but its a bit of a numbing escape

if universe amoral and humans animals is evil we see amplification like testosterone is truth amplification

false objective we seek is extrapolation

"i want to eat yummy cake and dance"

i miss social dancing and i miss penny and tango even though i'm glad i'm doing kung fu and i've done 8 45 min classes toward my childhood drram. i am so weak