the revelations from apr 11

 19 jun 2026 0948 at home in ca

everything is new all the time

trust in the self

you are in pain stop denying it and pursue relief

16 jul 2026 1205

and others but i am forgetting

24 oct 2026 1754

time reality perception flowing and folding like honey

 jul 1 2026  1055 bedrotting after weeks of more addiction

the "but who knows" at the end of storytellings is so important to keeping the wonder in myths fables and tall tales..

jul 16 2026 1200 crippling rotting

ive let a lot of thoughts slip away for trivial reasons

do i exercise as my simplest way of dopamine ?

i feel mentally castrated by being at home being watched and being on my phone but its a bit of a numbing escape

if universe amoral and humans animals is evil we see amplification like testosterone is truth amplification

false objective we seek is extrapolation

"i want to eat yummy cake and dance"

i miss social dancing and i miss penny and tango even though i'm glad i'm doing kung fu and i've done 8 45 min classes toward my childhood drram. i am so weak